I have been going through complete and total hell these last few days.

Ok so it was friday or saturday(fuck i dont even remember anymore) and i was hanging out with a friend. we were having fun taking turns playing Team Fortress 2 on the computer when i heard out shitzu Chloe barking. I went to see what it was and it was granny coming over.

Tito died. He was her little chihuahua who everyone has been saying he was practically mine too because i lived with her for years back when they got him when i was 5. I almost went into shock when she told me that. I just dropped my ds i was holding and started bawling all fucking day. He had a enlarged heart and something was pressing on his trechia where he could breath in but could barely breath out.

Honestly I still feel like I dont have a freakkin heart it hurts so fucking much. Poor Dasiy(grannys weiner dog) has just been sitting there looking so sad. She keeps going to the window looking for him.

The worst part for me is something just told me to go to the vet with her, it just screamed in my mind to go. But I didnt... I feel just so fucking shitty for that alone, god i miss him so much